S.T.R.U.G.G.L.I.N.G.

So, we are one week and one day into this deployment - and I can't think of any word to describe how I am coping, other than to say by definition, I am not (coping that is). . . .. . .

I am trying to put on a really strong front for Tim and for everyone else around me because I don't want people worrying about me, and I don't want the looks of pity from people - but inside I am absolutely heartbroken. It has to get better though I assume. . . . it can't possibly get any worse.